Jojo: What I want for Christmas..

• A boyfriend that would pamper me and love me for who I am
• A boyfriend who would tenderly look me in the eyes with love and kiss me and sweep me off my heavy feet. haha
  
• To hang out with my friends and them to put me before their boyfriends :P
• To try out new things other than hanging out in town n shopping every other day
• To eat and eat everything that I like without being fat
• To have a body like Megan Fox :P
• My brother to start studying harder and realize the reality of life if he doesn't
• My dad to start waking up his stupid 'get rich quick' with no hard work ideas
• My dad to kick his 4d habits and stop viewing money as the solution to everything
  
• A chanel bag, a chloe bag, a marc jacobs bag, either one or all of them.
• To rid my fear of being alone and be more independent :/
• To be able to speak espanol like penelope cruz especially when I'm angry. sounds freakin cool!
  
• To travel and see the world!!!
• For all of the above to come true..soon!
  

Jojo: My eternal pain

The death of love so silent yet sudden
I found me grieving endlessly for years
The need to answer my one thousand questions
That it may release my only pain
The pain that I may only try to understand but nought ..

Perhaps I am a sadist, fallen to the temptation of sadness
In a morbid melodramatic way, it makes my life more interesting.
Yet if it were not true, then why do I deny myself freedom?
To let go, to believe in happy endings
To believe that 'good things come to those who wait'

Alas as true as women come, I am fickle.

jojo: perfectionists are..

There is no such person called a perfectionist
Only people who want things done their way
By my own rights, I'd like to conveniently call them assholes.

:jojo: Daydream

I lay to sleep on the field of green
Feeling the air dance around me
They seem to enjoy their dance of freedom
Envy.

The butterflies on my feet
They tickle me
Teasing me with imaginations
Oh if they could carry me away

The birds chirping in the trees
Perhaps in mockery
Unrealistic dreamer
What a fool she seems

Having conversations
Like I wasn't there
Their biggest worry was where to go
The rain was coming

Like bullies throwing little stones
They hit me on my face
Forcing me to leave them pastures
Cruel rain.

::JOJO:: I Stay In Love

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby I
Try and try so hard
To keep our love alive
If you don't' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all

What I wanna do is
Ride shot-gun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block

We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone although I know..

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Song by Mariah Carey
Album: E=Mc2

Jojo: I want to be better

Its scary how you wake up one day, from living day to day and realize how time has pass you by. A few years gone by in a twinkle of an eye, and yet you feel left behind. You bump into people you once knew, and back then somehow you felt ahead of them.

You were young, full of hope and dreams. More than that you felt sure where your life was going, you had so much passion for life, it was like you were living in constant daylight, every road and direction so clearly pointed out.

Then things happen. As every day passes, good things, bad things, big things, small things happen. You live day to day, taking each day as it comes yet slowly but surely you were going blind. You start to lose sight about what you have in front of you. Those road signs and directions started to blur as you start seeing more of life.

Jaded. You feel like you've been in a dream, or maybe like a kid who was told santa claus doesn't exist. You felt cheated. Things don't just happen the way you want it to. That dream that once felt real now makes you feel like you were living in a world of your own imagination. Nothing but.

You got so sucked up in your vaccum of depression you almost went permanently blind. You try to convince yourself that life is not so complicated, that if you took it day by day, life would get easier. It did. For awhile....

One day, like a pair of rough bare hands that held you and shook you so hard, you suddenly started to regain your eyesight, only that you hated what you see. The place that you were at, how things were, the person you've become. Like a heart that had stopped for a moment, it started beating again. You realized that all along you knew you could have done better , been better.

Now, I want to be better.

::JOJO:: A bit of men and their bollocks. Lol

Guys who say 'I like girls without make up' are a bunch of crap. They give you that whole talk about how they're so into natural beauty I'm almost mistaken they prefer the female gender pre-evolution. Lol ok so that was a dramatic description..... but surely that statement 'I like girls without make up' is hypocrisy in it's most sublimate form.

Here's a few examples , most of which are mens' objects of desire.

Suppose you take them as strangers you meet on the street. Forget bout them being celebrities. Imagine if you were looking at the ones without makeup, would you take a second glance? Compare your answer to looking at the ones with makeup. Now... Would you take a second glance? Why? (Be completely honest ,based on your possible first reaction )















I don't think it's shallow of women to think that they look prettier with makeup, and you can't blame those that can't do without. If it enhances their natural features and make them more presentable and confident, men should appreciate and compliment women who take time to look good. I think men are mistaken that women with makeup = drag queen or porn star look. Takes ALOT of make up to look like that. Men should be more educated about that and stop making the statement 'I like girls without makeup'. It is just plain annoying!!!

If they are so adamant about appreciating natural beauty, maybe they should then start appreciating armpit hair, unruly eyebrows and overgrown *bushes*.
Crude ...but makes sense right???

::JOJO:: My new bf!!!

On a lighter note, I introduce to you..... my hunee bunss.... SEAN FARIS!!!!!

I was allowed at his shooting location today and poor chap was already exhausted when I got there, him working his 10th hour of the day. Still , being the lovely bf that he was , he obligingly posed for my camera. (Though his puppy dog eyes was a trick to get me to kiss him :P)

Here are more pictures of me darling:

Him trying to be serious.

Never for long!! :P



Last scene, 14 hour work day!! Poor Sean!!



I feel like the luckiest girl in the world right now. Like I'm in a dream...
Somebody pinch me please.
Like right now.

Ouch shit. I'm delusional.
Tell me you get it. LOL :P

::JOJO:: Regrets in words.

Regrets are the worst things in life.
It means too late, should have, would have, could have been. Regrets are sad because it means something irreversible has happened and big or small, you have to live with it for the rest of your life.

I have too many... but here's a few that has the greatest impact..

The 'too late' (My biggest regret):
Not spending more time with my mum when she was still around. It's something that will haunt me forever. Everytime I think of it, the thought just induces self-loathing. Why couldn't I have sacrifice more time and shower her with all the love and attention that I could have given? Why couldn't I have stayed more by her side and comforted her in her darkest of days? Does she forgive me for all of these? I can't. Now I try to make up for it by taking care of my little brother and guiding him in life, knowing that was one of her biggest worry and I hope I'm doing her right. Alas I know making up will never be enough.

The 'could have been':
Saying no to a job contract with mediacorppress after my graduation. What the freaking hell was I thinking??!?!?!? Things might have been sweet or at least agreeable (with my paycheck) by now and I would have been moving forward steadily instead of being stranded. Now I'm currently trying to change that by looking for a better job but no luck as yet. Luck? Is that all I can depend on??

The 'should have':
Doing better in my education and realizing the possible impact on my future. Live day to day?? Yea right. Failing to plan sure knocked me hard on the head even up to this moment. If I had done better I would have had windows of opportunities open for me even till now.. Ahh the luxury of choices.


The aftermath:
Rectifying mistakes cost alot more than the prevention of. As a result, Jo's wants and needs are unfulfilled leaving her potentially sad and jaded. Have to work doubly hard to catch up and yet tread ahead with caution. :/

Moral of the story:
The little everyday decisions you make in life can contribute to being the biggest regrets you'll have later.

::JOJO:: Happiness is shortlived but..

The other day I was eating burger king and I came up with this analogy. After chomping down on my burger and onion rings like i haven't ate for days I started sulking. Then I said to my colleague, "Happiness is shortlived!".

I said that because I anticipated the whole eating process and the taste of the food so much and mostly, the joy of me eating those delicious junk . Yet as fast as my fast food came, it was gone.
Sadly, I cleared what was left of my initial happiness and was about to consider it trash when my colleague said, "hey there's one more onion ring!" So I said, "ahh! but then life is full of surprises."

Well I guess point of me saying all this is that if a person is at their darkest moments, they shouldn't despair, because life is full of surprises at every corner and turn and as much as happiness is short-lived, so is sadness. Period. :P

::JOJO:: Thai Thai (Part 2)

I miss Thailand!!!

Here are some more pictures to reminisce the sweet culture and streets of thailand.

Not forgetting the food, oh glorious food!!!!

Can't believe she can sleep like that.. in the airport's sky lounge. *rolls eyes*


Last thai meal at the airport's lounge, Not that fantastic sadly.. =(


I like the special orange juice, absolutely refreshing!!


Everywhere she goes, she has something to buy..


Can you believe it? its 20 bht!! less than a dollar to eat those lil fried bites! Tried and tested . Pretty good! Didn't get diarrhoea either. LOL.




Street hawker.. simple living can be so interesting :)






Suanlum night bazaar.



Me love the gyozas!



Having a japanese steamboat lunch..

Mine too!! Love the vintage dress.


Mine!


Serene's acquisitions! Plus Tristan's.


Our view while eating..


Happy and eager to begin dinner. Yummyyyy!!





In our tuk-tuk. The first time I sat on it, it was a little scary when he did a turn!





Waiting for our cabbie to go to SuanLum night bazaar. =)


Counterfeit Tiffany and Chanels. :P


Basking too.. total opposite from the 'rock' band! haha


Basking on the streets.. =)

::JOJO:: Sawadee ka!!! Overdue pics from Thai Thai

Happy customers!!!Will come again for sure!


I told him to pose for the camera but he was too engrossed!!


Serene's first basil porky rice . I swear she eats that every meal!


Tom Yam Goong! Must have for every thai meal!


One of the happiest moments in my life, is when I'm eating.


Me fried rice! Doesn't look that colorful but very nice!!


Being silly. As usual. :P


First meal at chatuchak. Good n Cheap!!
At our Sweeeeet Apartment. Somerset Suanplu.


Our first cab of many! Just got there n so hard to close already???


In the plane finally!! After being delayed for 45 mins. Damn budget airline.


Our passport to happiness!!!!


Cam-whoring already!


Tristan having a psychological stomach ache from disappointing breakfast.


Holdin my puke from bad breakfast. Yelch!


Our first meal of the day at Changi. Horrendous!!!! I ordered chicken rice which was $6 and it came with white rice!! :( Grumpy!!


Not even out of Changi Airport and we're shopping already!! hopeless!!