Jojo: What I want for Christmas..

• A boyfriend that would pamper me and love me for who I am
• A boyfriend who would tenderly look me in the eyes with love and kiss me and sweep me off my heavy feet. haha
  
• To hang out with my friends and them to put me before their boyfriends :P
• To try out new things other than hanging out in town n shopping every other day
• To eat and eat everything that I like without being fat
• To have a body like Megan Fox :P
• My brother to start studying harder and realize the reality of life if he doesn't
• My dad to start waking up his stupid 'get rich quick' with no hard work ideas
• My dad to kick his 4d habits and stop viewing money as the solution to everything
  
• A chanel bag, a chloe bag, a marc jacobs bag, either one or all of them.
• To rid my fear of being alone and be more independent :/
• To be able to speak espanol like penelope cruz especially when I'm angry. sounds freakin cool!
  
• To travel and see the world!!!
• For all of the above to come true..soon!
  

Jojo: My eternal pain

The death of love so silent yet sudden
I found me grieving endlessly for years
The need to answer my one thousand questions
That it may release my only pain
The pain that I may only try to understand but nought ..

Perhaps I am a sadist, fallen to the temptation of sadness
In a morbid melodramatic way, it makes my life more interesting.
Yet if it were not true, then why do I deny myself freedom?
To let go, to believe in happy endings
To believe that 'good things come to those who wait'

Alas as true as women come, I am fickle.